Gosh!!! Today is school reopen day T.T
Seriously don't feel like going to school.
Though holidays are boring, but going to school means i cant sleep/wake up late.
And i will have less time to relax.

Didn't sleep today...
Maybe...i did, about 3 hours...
Had some pretty weird dreams and random thoughts.
And theres so much i want to speak out, but no one to listen to me.
AHA!!!
Never mind.

Now, my morning random thought

This holiday is so soul-less.
I could say that its because i cant find myself.
Everyday, my body is like a robot, do the same things over and over again, until i don't even know what im doing.
Things i truely desire, things i want to do, i didn't.
Or i can't in some cases.
Damn.
Random thoughts in the morning just makes me feel so emo~~~
Lonely?
Nah, I guess im lost. Every part of me is.... lost.

Truth
Trying to be interested when im not.
Laughing and smiling when im not happy.
Sometimes, i feel like crying. (LOL)
But i'd just hold it back.
Because I'm don't like people to worry about me?
Maybe?
Or maybe the truth is that im scared that it will hurt me more if i realised that no one cares about me?
AHA!!

Act
Im not great at acting.
And im also tired of acting.
Acting that i don't care, but actually i care.
Kept telling myself things in the wrong manner.
Kept forcing myself to do things i don't like.
DAMN. I GUESS STUPIDITY HAS REACH A WHOLE NEW LEVEL ON ME.

Memories
I miss those days with you, with my friends where i am myself.
I miss those talks with all of my friends too.
I miss it and im still thinking of it now.

Theres so much so much things i want to say, but i just could, not here, not to you all
(if people actually read my blog.)
I know its irritating i come up with this kind of post everytime.
But... i just wanna take some load of my mind.
Don't like it, cross the page.

hahas
Hmm School tmr, gonna go to sleep at 2 plus.
haha early "goodnight".

~*Vanished away at` ... 12:02 AM