Lols im here to blog!
Haha thats because someone said that i seldommmmmmmmmm blog.
And i came to think about it, so im here to update.

2nd day of school.
So far so good. :D
Just that the lectures a abit boring :D

These few days, sleeping earlier wasn't the problem for me.
But sleeping soundly is the problem for me.
Firstly, it was quite difficult for me to fall asleep
And i've been waking up like several times in between my sleep.
It just didn't feel right for me.
And i felt like i shouldn't sleep because there is somethings i haven't done.
Lols.
ARGH `Whatever~~~~

hmm Had some weird dreams just now, when i fell asleep...
Damn weird.

~*Vanished away at` ... 2:42 AM

Gosh!!! Today is school reopen day T.T
Seriously don't feel like going to school.
Though holidays are boring, but going to school means i cant sleep/wake up late.
And i will have less time to relax.

Didn't sleep today...
Maybe...i did, about 3 hours...
Had some pretty weird dreams and random thoughts.
And theres so much i want to speak out, but no one to listen to me.
AHA!!!
Never mind.

Now, my morning random thought

This holiday is so soul-less.
I could say that its because i cant find myself.
Everyday, my body is like a robot, do the same things over and over again, until i don't even know what im doing.
Things i truely desire, things i want to do, i didn't.
Or i can't in some cases.
Damn.
Random thoughts in the morning just makes me feel so emo~~~
Lonely?
Nah, I guess im lost. Every part of me is.... lost.

Truth
Trying to be interested when im not.
Laughing and smiling when im not happy.
Sometimes, i feel like crying. (LOL)
But i'd just hold it back.
Because I'm don't like people to worry about me?
Maybe?
Or maybe the truth is that im scared that it will hurt me more if i realised that no one cares about me?
AHA!!

Act
Im not great at acting.
And im also tired of acting.
Acting that i don't care, but actually i care.
Kept telling myself things in the wrong manner.
Kept forcing myself to do things i don't like.
DAMN. I GUESS STUPIDITY HAS REACH A WHOLE NEW LEVEL ON ME.

Memories
I miss those days with you, with my friends where i am myself.
I miss those talks with all of my friends too.
I miss it and im still thinking of it now.

Theres so much so much things i want to say, but i just could, not here, not to you all
(if people actually read my blog.)
I know its irritating i come up with this kind of post everytime.
But... i just wanna take some load of my mind.
Don't like it, cross the page.

hahas
Hmm School tmr, gonna go to sleep at 2 plus.
haha early "goodnight".

~*Vanished away at` ... 12:02 AM

Just woke up O.O
Had a dream.
I cant remember anything about it, but i can say it should be a good one.
Because it felt so real and so comfortable.
Totally not like sleeping, its like my soul went somewhere else for adventure.
But i cant remember anything about that dream.
Why......

Overslept, missed my outing with Junkai they all, missed my dinner and the food my dad bought gone bad.
Got a scolding from my dad :(
And he asked my "What you look like now (in chinese)"
I suddenly stunned and thought about it, dont know why.
Normally i wouldnt care.. haha
Going to meet desmond soon....

Yeah i don't even know who i am now, i guess......

~*Vanished away at` ... 9:06 PM

Gosh, sorry blog, neglected you for so long...
(Wipes away the dust)
Sorry man... Just didn't have the mood to blog for the past days/weeks/months.
But now, i suddenly feel like blogging.

Just came back from Junkai house not long...
Yeah, just celebrated his birthday and overnight-ed at his house.
It was great man, damn fun!

Holiday is coming to an end.
Yeah great!
Its always better to have something to do then to everyday do the same things.
Whats more boring than to run out of things to do.

Holiday is damn damn boring...
Nothing to do.. everyday, do the same things.
Omg, i guess i just wasted my holidays away.
Theres still lots of things i want to do...

Hmm, so many things contained in my mind...
So many things glassed in my heart.
Hmm, guess i just need to spill them out.
But to who?
(Gazed into the air with no one in sight)

~*Vanished away at` ... 10:22 AM