Saturday, January 23, 2010
That's so familiar, but it's not me.... right?
Rawr!!! Just came back from watching Legion. Its a pretty nice show for me. Haha. But it might not be nice for others, cause the rating for the show was low. Haha. Went to slack at tmart mac after that.
Talked with Desmond about quite alot of things :D The best part is about dreams. wahahahaha.
Hope i dream later.
Recently was all about projects, projects and...... projects. Chiong until damn tired everyday.
Fall asleep very frequently this few days. Need to energize myself ler.
The stupid voiceless thing have been bothering me a lot. Make my mood lousy and i get irritated easily.
Damn it! FASTER RECOVER PLS!!!
No matter who you are referring to (i guess its definitely not me), don't you forget that I'm always here for you too. I remember saying that i will catch you too, if you ever fall. But i forget to add that i will push you back up even if it costs me to fall :D~*Vanished away at` ... 6:39 AM
Monday, January 18, 2010
I know I'm not Alone, But I still feel Lonely
Just finished a round of dota. Then suddenly have the urge to blog. Having a test tomorrow, but im slacking T.T So im gonna go revise abit later ( slap self awake ). Had been pretty active in basketball this week. Just felt like playing ball and that feel doesn't seem to go away. Ahaha...
Been deep in thoughts for awhile just now. Was thinking about the past year. And suddenly i just felt lonely. Thinking about it, yes i have friends, many friends - new, old, tall, short, fat, skinny, all sorts. But i feel as if there is a huge wall isolating me from them. It wasn't like this in the past where it was all fine and there we no boundaries between them and me. Felt distanced from some of them, while there is only a few that stayed close.
Sometimes, i feel so lost that not matter how much i want so speak to some of them, i don't know how to. Always went clicking their names on msn, or my handphone, and spending time that felt like years to think of how to start, what to say, reply or continue. In the end, i always give up thinking. Sometimes, i wanna ignore whats happening, but i always cant help but think whether i've did anything wrong. Always ponder about my thoughts and always regretting about some wrongs i think i've done.
Its not that i'm scared of loneliness, nor i care whether im alone or not, it is just plain boring to feel alone or be alone. :/
haha.
Feel like playing ball now... :P
~*Vanished away at` ... 1:43 AM
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
A bond so great that...
Distance don't matter, the friendship matters.
Have been away from my blog for "century".
Sorry T.T (blow dust away)
LOLS, half the reason i didn't update my blog is....
because my life is super, duper, wooper and 'whatever'-per the same.
Same as in i do the same almost things every day.
Ji no life yi xia....
But at least i have some things to blog today.
Because finally i have something alot more special then school, dota, etc.
Its none other than the sotong's birthday. :P
Ahaaha. This year is different.
Cos she booked a chalet this year!!
Ahahaha.
The theme was nerd O.O
I wore my so called "nerd" la. But i heard that it looked more like a paikia with the bigbig specs.
Forget it... My face cannot be nerd (amchio)
Wasted that i didnt get to see the rest of the nerds. Was late.
The chalet was interesting :D
Too bad i didn't stayed. Wanted to but due to some reasons, i didnt.
Sorry guys.
Gosh... i injured my wrist 2 weeks ago then didn't get to play ball.
BUT i forced myself to play ytd AND IT WAS DAMN GREAT!!!
Can still feel the adrenaline rush in me.
Ahaha, now i feel like playing again...
Btw,i was pretty glad that the injury didn't hinder my game.
Ahha!! HOPE IT RECOVER FASTER, BEST BY TMR...
~*Vanished away at` ... 2:08 AM
Monday, November 2, 2009
YOYOYO!Back to update my blog.
hahahaa.
Days are getting alittle more interesting.
Because i am going more, with class mates.
Still playing ball and dota like usual.
Ahha. But i cant sleep late like usual O.O
Things in my head currently~~
Actually lots of things have change.
Not to what i've thought it would be.
Missing lots of things from the past.
Lots of things change, i guess i changed too, just alittle :D
I wish time could reverse.
So i can amend things that i've done wrong, things that i regretted doing.
I've broken my promise to you, i'm sorry.
But i just don't know how to approach you, start a topic, talk like we used to.
Its awkward, everything is.... after what i said that time.
I've always type a message on sms or msn or whatever, and i look at your name/contact...
And i think, is this appropriate? Can i carry on to find topic to say?
Thats because i wanna talk more with you, and i don't want to run out of topic.
Making the whole session boring like hell.
Im not good with talking, but i try.
Though i still suck.
I just want to make you happy everytime i talk with you.
I remember how BIG the range of topics we had, in the past.
I want those days to replace the current one.
I want the relationship to be back like the past.
I want to meet up with you, chat with you like in the past.
I miss your beautiful smile.
...Believe me, i will try to get it back on track...
But can your current life hold another person back?
I hope that space i once had can still fit me when im back.
Give me sometime....
~*Vanished away at` ... 12:08 AM
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Lols im here to blog!
Haha thats because someone said that i seldommmmmmmmmm blog.
And i came to think about it, so im here to update.
2nd day of school.
So far so good. :D
Just that the lectures a abit boring :D
These few days, sleeping earlier wasn't the problem for me.
But sleeping soundly is the problem for me.
Firstly, it was quite difficult for me to fall asleep
And i've been waking up like several times in between my sleep.
It just didn't feel right for me.
And i felt like i shouldn't sleep because there is somethings i haven't done.
Lols.
ARGH `Whatever~~~~
hmm Had some weird dreams just now, when i fell asleep...
Damn weird.
~*Vanished away at` ... 2:42 AM
